Cookies and Puppies

Alright I’m done. I’m done with letting my feelings get played. Its over, Its all over. I’m done with all this shit. I’m free.

Last Friday I met this guy, Ben. He’s awesome. He’s cute. Haha. It was 11pm and I managed to escape the gathering at my uncle’s house, then I went to meet him, cos he stayed nearby. We went to the playground near his house and we chatted. It was like talking with someone I know and I felt comfortable with him. He’s a science student, from VJC, triple H2 science. Crazy. Haha. He seemed like a pleasant person, and he’s very independent as well. So far everything was pleasant, I hope >___< Then yesterday I met him for supper, I brought him to eat Jalan Kayu roti prata… Hehehehe. He really liked it. We had lots of fun eating laughing. We ate one egg prata each and shared rojak, we wanted to eat more actually but by the end of the rojak our stomachs were too full XD. Then we went to the bus stop and waited for so long. We sat super close to each other… KEKE…. Then we listened to music and chatted again… He told me that he is free on Saturdays and that we could go for supper again!!! After 40 mins of waiting we realised the bus wasn’t coming :( so we cabbed back to his place. He was so worried for me as I still needed to cycle back and it was 1am already… He asked me to contact him when I got home safely =p

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This was written on 19 April 2012

Just some thoughts on myself.

I think sometimes I get really uptight about things. Although I appear to be, I’m actually not that confident of myself all the time. In fact sometimes I am afraid of being myself, like in front of certain people or people I have never met before.

For example especially when I meet cute boys… I immediately become so conscious of myself, how I look, my flaws, my behavior and stuff like that :(

I think I should learn to be less uptight about things, less hasty, more calm. I should also love myself more and be more confident of who I am; “I” have to comfortable with myself.

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SO IM BAK HERE OMG. I KNOW I HAVE NEGLECTED YOU COOKIESANDPUPPIES IM SO SORRY.

I’m kinda feeling kinda down, stressed, messed up, and confused. But I must say I am a person who copes well and knows how to pick myself up; I’ve been filling myself up with other activities, practicing, gyming, going out to take my mind off whats bothering me.

Yes its about Lino.

But anyway, I just feel i need to talk to someone about these matters soon. I don’t feel confident handling them by myself and I’m not so sure about these as well.

Been dying to skate soon. Theres a outing of 1991 people this sat, not sure if i should join… they seem like a group of fun, and most importantly self-respecting people. Maybe i should go out there and make some more friends, proper ones.

Ps. I know everytime I post something here its always not so positive. I’m so sorry. Haha. =/

Cheers,

Cookie.

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Cookie is stressed… =(

They say its not how many hours you have got in a day how you use your time. BUT I REALLY HAVE NO TIME. =(

Tomorrow morning i have my long anticipated MEDICAL CHECK UP OMG. AT 8.30am IN THE BLOODY MORNING. Then I have rehearsal in school at 11am. Another rehearsal at 1pm. ANOTHER REHEARSAL at 7.30pm.

Thursday morning I have rehearsal, 10.30am to 1.30pm, 3 HOURS!. Then i get to go to cute boy salon to cut my hair =p at 2.30pm, but that means no time to practice. Anyway all the practice rooms are taken at that time. Then I have to come back to school for rehearsal at 7-10pm. =(

Friday I have rehearsal 11-1am, then I have to travel down to NUS for lesson at 2pm then back to school again for rehearsal 4-6pm. =(

Saturday I have to teach.

Sunday I have to teach.

Monday I have… wait monday is free. OMG. FINALLY.

Tuesday I have rehearsal 10.30am-1.30pm, then I have my school concert at 8p-10pm, then IMMEDIATELY after, I have to cab to the airport for a flight at 1.20am to JAPAN for the music festival. YAY. BUT =( because I JUST GOT THE MUSIC FOR THE FESTIVAL LAST THURSDAY. AND IF YOU SEE MY SCHEDULE I HAVE NO TIME ALREADY. OMG. =(

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wow.

=( my baby Lino is sick…. and I can’t take care of him or hug him…. His mom is taking good care of him though. Hugs u baby Lino. =)

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HEHE BROTHERLY LOVE. OR COUPLE PRETENDING TO FIGHT. HAHA. SO BROMANTIC.

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RAWR.

Okay. I have neglected cookiesandpuppies for quite sometime now, haha. Not a big issue, considering I only have one reader, puppiesandcookies. HEHEHEHE.

Anyway. Life’s been pretty stressful lately, with an onslaught of events/projects/gigs coming one after another like rapid machine gun fire. I am mentally not coping well. So today after rehearsal and lunch, i decided to head home for a breather. I took an afternoon nap, one of the luxuries with I dearly miss, and then I headed out for a walk and dinner. Now I’m back home in front of my macbook with inspiration to type here. HAHA.

Recently I have noticed my diminishing interest towards my eye-candy. Yeah the same cute guy in school that was my eye-candy for the past say one and a half years. HAHA. When I look at him, I usually get this super-tingling sensation in my body, but now its just normal. HAHAHA.

I don’t know why but my love/curiosity/inspiration for photography has been expanding exponentially recently. I’m supposed to share a DSLR with my mom, her friend (owner of a shop) would be getting us a great discount. I also want a film camera where I can take good old film photographs. For me its all about expressing myself, and being in a moment, capturing myself in a moment, be it in music or any other thing; so other than music I think photography is a great medium which I should explore.

P.S Lino has been really sweet. HEHE. I wana hug him tight. KEKEKE.